The Year Behind: Moving Forward Without Looking Back

"I'm the little one today. 

Tomorrow you could be. 

As long as we talk before passing the umbrella,

we'll always have it." 

-Aaron

The hard thing about moving forward is not looking back - and not looking back has been a major battle of mine for the past month.

My last post, in which I detailed my embarrassing snooping moment, I edited, withheld and treaded lightly while detailing how things went down. And although I'm currently writing about leaving the past behind, I feel I can't move forward with my readers without honestly displaying what I found, how I felt and what I did during that 10-month period of gray area with Aaron.

Here's my attempt at lying naked before you all.

Snap Judgement: 9 Things I Learned About Love From the Sex and the City 2 Trailer

Don't lie; you're counting down the days until the sequel to Sex and the City: The Movie hits theaters (May 27, to be exact!)…but on a more serious note, as I've done in previous breakdowns of SATC episodes, let's explore what I've learned about love from the delicious series and its new trailer:

Poke. Prod. Peek: When Insecurity Interrupts Bliss

I've learned that it's a difficult task for a reflective person to maintain bliss. There's something unnerving in finally getting what you want and what you believe you deserve. For me this blissful moment came to a head when I let doubt enter my relationship.

In the month since Aaron committed to a life with me, he'd been the epitome of what I dreamt a good partner could be: attentive, thoughtful, eager, kind, forward thinking and beautiful. Although I rejoiced in my coupled-up bliss, a nagging insecurity haunted me—and that insecurity led me to the first remarkably stupid mishap in our relationship: I poked.

My 'BIG' Birthday Moment: Life's Lovely Little Surprises

"Thank you for having the courage to believe and hang on when I was unable."
-Aaron's birthday message

A week before my birthday, my best friend Mai and I were brainstorming how we should celebrate my 27th year of life.

"This will be the perfect time for Aaron to meet everyone," she excitedly said, as I equally became giddy. But the following day, as I relayed the plans to Aaron, it didn't forebode well--as he claimed the festivities made him anxious.

"It's freaking me out a bit," he said. "We just got back together. Let's have our own coming out party a little later."